I take pride in being a mum of twins; I really do wear it as a badge of honour, but that was not always the case. My entire pregnancy, I was mortified at the thought of having two dependent children! However, I quickly realised that a healthy mental, emotional and physical wellbeing was the only way I was going to manage.
To be truthful, I had mixed emotions when I found out I was pregnant. As you can imagine, at 18 years old, I was still just a child. I was in the middle of my first year at University and instantly knew that I would complete my first year and then take it from there. So I did and moved back home and would commute from London to Cambridge 3 days a week, pregnant. It was not easy to say the least. By the time I finished my first year, I was 4 months pregnant and was showing really heavy.
During this time, my partner and I attended our 12 week scan. My only expectations were to check the health of my ONE CHILD and check other various things. I remember my sonographer being so nonchalant. He was male, and was not bothered that day at all. I lay with my back flat on the bed and he asked me to expose my stomach. He applied the freezing cold ultrasound gel on my stomach and began making observations. He didn’t say anything for a good 30 seconds and I remember thinking “What can this man see?”
It was at this point, he vacantly said
“There’s two there you know?”
“WHAT?!” screamed my partner.
The sonographer turned the screen to us, and said “yeah there’s two babies”. I couldn’t believe my ears. We just froze in disbelief. I must point out that my elder brother also has fraternal twins so I didn’t once think it would happen to me. We immediately called and told our mothers who were both so overjoyed. I couldn’t understand why. How could I have coped with 2 babies? My fear lasted my entire pregnancy and after anxiously waiting, my amazing children were born.
Of course the road has not been easy, but I have learned so much about myself, and it’s amazing how much a mother can bear for her children.
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